2011 is finally coming to an end in a few weeks time. And boy am i excited to welcome 2012. The new year is gonna bring along new resolutions and expectations, together with bigger responsibilities. I’m ready. I guess.
Past few weeks seemed like a nighmare. Or in fact, it WAS a nightmare. Sometimes i looked up to myself for being able to look so independent and strong on the facade. But deep inside me, i’m just a ordinary teenager who just turned 21 getting ready to face the working society. I’m still weak and hoping that the world would give me a little more time to settle down before all the financial problems in the family bring me down. Sometimes I wonder why do i have to be in this state when i’m not even the one who created the problem. I wanna live like a queen with my hard-earned money and buy everything i fancy. I dont want to be limited in any ways. But i guess a family that solves problem together, stays together. So i begin telling myself that everything will work out just fine everyday albeit the dark gloomy days ahead. I call myself an optimist.
During the whole incident, J stayed beside me. He was there to provide me solutions while i’m crying the shit outta myself. I can never be as thankful than anything else for having him in my life. Since he enlisted, we’ve been spending our weekends together as though it’s gonna be the end of the world the next day. Last weekend was all about Xmas shopping. We had so much fun roaming ard town that we forgot about dinner. But that’s not what i enjoy most. What i enjoy most is snuggling with him on his big bed. Never knew that i can love a man so much until i met J. Thank you for coming into my boring life hun! <3
Gonna head town to do some last min shopping for Xmas tmr. Hopefully I’ll be able to get everything i need! :)
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